Jackson Garden-Bachop said: “He annoyed the s*** out of me when we were younger, but as we got older we became friends. He was the best man at my wedding and it’s not because he was my brother – it’s because he was my best mate. He was full of love, life and laughter.”
Jackson Garden-Bachop (right) describes Connor Garden-Bachop as more of a best friend than a brother. Photo / NZ Woman’s Weekly
After Connor Garden-Bachop, who was a father to 5-year-old twins, died, the family was inundated with tributes of love, which Jackson Garden-Bachop said was only fitting for his brother, who was always smiling.
“The number of messages we received was pretty overwhelming, but I think it was well deserved,” he said. “He left a lasting impression on everyone he met, whether it was one time or if he knew them for years. He was always himself.”
Knowing he needed to be close to family, Jackson Garden-Bachop negotiated the termination of his French contract.
He found a new home at Moana Pasifika – a team the proud Māori, Samoan, French Polynesian and Cook Island brothers dreamed of playing for together under the leadership of their cousin, former coach Aaron Mauger.
Jackson Garden-Bachop also returned to his home club, the Wellington Lions. The last time he wore the jersey, Connor Garden-Bachop was by his side. Now, more than ever, the five years they spent together in the squad stand out as the highlight of his career.
“I understood in the moment how cool and rare it was to be able to play with my little brother,” Jackson Garden-Bachop said. “I’m grateful it happened the way it did.
“I try to carry the memory of him every time I do anything, not just on the field.”
The brothers’ success on the field isn’t surprising, considering the impressive sporting pedigree they hail from. Their father Stephen Garden was an All Black and their mother Sue Garden-Bachop a Black Fern. Numerous uncles and cousins have reached the top of their respective sports.
Despite the footsteps he followed in, Jackson Garden-Bachop said he never felt pressure to surpass his family’s achievements, as they only served to drive him.
“There was no expectation from Mum and Dad to reach those heights,” he says. “They were going to love me no matter what. But it gave me inspiration – I wanted to be like them. Being able to see that it’s possible made me want to push the limit.”
That success came at a cost. The brothers were often at opposite ends of the country – or the world – especially after Jackson Garden-Bachop moved to Japan in 2022. They sometimes went months without seeing each other and he admits it took a long time to accept his brother wouldn’t suddenly walk through the door.
“There’s the initial shock and disbelief, and you keep expecting to see them,” he said. “Then there come times of acceptance, which are brutal, understanding that you’re never going to see them again. But then the disbelief returns and you think, ‘Is this really happening?’ The sadness is ever evolving.”
Navigating grief is something Garden-Bachop understands all too well. He was only 8 when his mum was diagnosed with leukaemia and 14 when the disease stole her life.
Jackson Garden-Bachop with his wife Rosie Garden-Bachop and three children, Marley, Milo and Matiu Garden-Bachop. Photo / Hagen Hopkins
Now Garden-Bachop and his wife Rosie Garden-Bachop, 27, are helping their children Marley, 5, Milo, 4, and Matiu Garden-Bachop, 1, understand why their uncle is suddenly gone.
“There were some tricky conversations we had to have around life and death,” Garden-Bachop said. “They can’t comprehend what forever means, but they’re aware Uncle Connor’s not coming back and that he’s looking down on us.
“Sometimes they’ll say, ‘I miss Uncle Connor. Can he see me when I play rugby? Does he know that I’m starting school?’”
After the arrival of baby Matiu last year, Jackson and Rosie Garden-Bachop knew their family wasn’t complete. They didn’t plan on having number four little more than a year later, but they’ve always been good at taking life’s curveballs in their stride.
The pair, who married in 2022, were in their early 20s when they first met. Jackson Garden-Bachop lived with one of her friends and the moment he saw her at their flat-warming party, he was smitten.
Though they both knew early on they had found their person, it was still a shock when she became pregnant only five months after they started dating.
“It was overwhelming and surprising,” Garden-Bachop recalled. “But we loved each other, and we’d already talked about getting a house and having a family together. It just snuck up on us early.”
Jackson and Rosie Garden-Bachop are expecting their fourth child. Photo / Hagen Hopkins
The happy accident was the best thing that ever happened to him.
“I always knew I wanted to be a dad,” he said. “But I didn’t understand how much love I would have and how much purpose it would give me in my life until I had Marley. It’s everything.”
The two older children have inherited Garden-Bachop’s sporting genes and he relishes cheering them on from the sidelines.
“They both love sport,” he said. “Milo loves rugby, and Marley plays hockey, does dance and gymnastics. I’m yelling and cheering on the sidelines. I love bringing energy to their games, but I’m never going to be one yelling about mistakes.”
He still has years left in his career but already knows how he’ll be spending his time once he retires.
“When I’m not so busy with my career, hopefully I’ll be able to go into more of a coaching role with all my kids’ teams.”
Jackson Garden-Bachop’s two older children have inherited his sporting genes. Photo / Hagen Hopkins
Family has always been the centre of Garden-Bachop’s world – ask him what his proudest achievements are and rugby is far down the list. But the loss of his brother brought further clarity about where his priorities lie.
He still has things he’d like to achieve in his rugby career, but these days, his best moments are soaking up simple joys.
“Over the past year, a lot of that career stuff has fallen by the wayside,” he said. “My goal in life is just to be happy and do things that I enjoy with the people I love. You never know what’s going to happen or when you’ll say goodbye for the last time.
“My daughter just started school and is learning how to read and write. It’s rewarding to see my son get more involved with his rugby team and more comfortable being himself with his friends. I think Matiu will start walking soon. I’m appreciating all the small things that come my way day to day.”