Nicole Kidman may have officially filed for divorce from Keith Urban on Sept. 30, but a recently published interview reveals the split may have been brewing for a while.

During a conversation with Vogue published on Wednesday but held “a few weeks” before news broke of the couple’s separation, Kidman gave an unusually mournful response when asked how she felt at the current point in her life, in her ’50s.

Kidman, 58, said: “How many times do you have to be taught that you think you know where your life is going and then it isn’t going in that direction?”

Karwai Tang/WireImage Nicole Kidman on May 18, 2025

Karwai Tang/WireImage

Nicole Kidman on May 18, 2025

The Oscar winner shared that she “leans on a close circle of girlfriends” while in Nashville for support, including former Big Little Lies costar Reese Witherspoon, a senior oncologist at Vanderbilt Hospital, and another friend who runs a hospital.

“Ride-or-die friendships. Oh, yeah,” she quipped, for after she uses the “highs and lows of life, the losses and the pain” for her work. “That’s the beauty of what I do. There’s a place for some of this to explode, implode, process, discover.”

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Neither Kidman nor Urban, 57, have spoken out about their decision to end their relationship after 19 years of marriage. A source told PEOPLE that Kidman “didn’t want this,” adding that the Moulin Rouge star “has been fighting to save the marriage.”

The pair tied the knot in June 2006 after meeting the year prior. During a 2017 appearance on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, the To Die For actress recalled being immediately smitten with the singer, but revealed that Urban took a little while to contact her after they first crossed paths.

“I had such a crush on him, and he wasn’t interested in me. It’s true!” Kidman said on the show. “He didn’t call me for four months.”

They went on to welcome two daughters, Sunday Rose, 17, and Faith Margaret, 14.

Publicly, all seemed well between the couple; Kidman celebrated their 19th wedding anniversary on June 25 with an Instagram post showing the actress resting her head on her husband’s shoulders in a dressing room. “Happy Anniversary Baby,” she captioned the post.

The couple spent the summer pursuing their own creative endeavors, PEOPLE reported, as Kidman was filming Practical Magic 2 in London while Urban was on his High and Alive World Tour in support of his 2024 album, High.

Kidman confirmed that her fantasy sequel, which also stars Sandra Bullock, had wrapped filming earlier this month.

Taylor Hill/WireImage Keith Urban and Nicole Kidman on May 8, 2025

Taylor Hill/WireImage

Keith Urban and Nicole Kidman on May 8, 2025

But in July, Urban abruptly disconnected from a radio interview in Australia after being asked a question about Kidman’s love scenes with Zac Efron in her film A Family Affair. A representative for the singer declined to comment on the matter when contacted by EW at the time, though an unnamed source told PEOPLE that Urban “did not hang up, period,” and noted that “He doesn’t host his Zoom interviews. This is a complete nothingburger.”

TMZ reported Monday that Urban had moved out of the couple’s shared home in Nashville and found his own residence in the city.

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