{"id":339000,"date":"2025-12-10T08:21:08","date_gmt":"2025-12-10T08:21:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/339000\/"},"modified":"2025-12-10T08:21:08","modified_gmt":"2025-12-10T08:21:08","slug":"when-i-look-back-at-what-has-been-going-through-my-mind-i-find-the-tapes-are-missing-the-joys-of-cycling-on-your-own","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/339000\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8216;When I look back at what has been going through my mind, I find the tapes are missing&#8217; \u2013 the joys of cycling on your own"},"content":{"rendered":"<p id=\"eb4939d8-e26b-4255-af1c-123f5c65e5c8\">Non-cycling friends often say things to me along the lines of: \u201cyou must really be able to get some thinking done when you\u2019re cycling. I imagine you think up all your columns when you\u2019re out on the bike. They must almost write themselves!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Normally I say something straightforwardly dishonest, which is: \u201cyes.\u201d That\u2019s because the truth is difficult to explain, and I feel that it does not reflect well on me.<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/hSPLqVjnkWwNR3C7UKCbEk.jpg\" alt=\"Dr Hutch \"   class=\"person__avatar image-wrapped__image image__image\" loading=\"lazy\" data-normal=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/hSPLqVjnkWwNR3C7UKCbEk.jpg\" data-original-mos=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/hSPLqVjnkWwNR3C7UKCbEk.jpg\" data-pin-media=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/hSPLqVjnkWwNR3C7UKCbEk.jpg\" data-pin-nopin=\"true\" data-slice-image=\"true\"\/><\/p>\n<p>Multiple national road champion on the bike and award-winning author Michael Hutchinson writes for Cycling Weekly every week.<\/p>\n<p><a id=\"elk-seasonal\" class=\"paywall\" aria-hidden=\"true\" data-url=\"\" href=\"\" target=\"_blank\" referrerpolicy=\"no-referrer-when-downgrade\" data-hl-processed=\"none\"\/><\/p>\n<p id=\"7805e027-c75a-423b-84f3-e7322e937117-0\">Ironically, thinking about things isn\u2019t something I think about too often. And that\u2019s because when I look back at what has been going through my mind during a <a data-analytics-id=\"inline-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.cyclingweekly.com\/fitness\/training\/how-to-build-your-cycling-endurance-407292\" data-mrf-recirculation=\"inline-link\" data-before-rewrite-localise=\"https:\/\/www.cyclingweekly.com\/fitness\/training\/how-to-build-your-cycling-endurance-407292\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\">long ride<\/a>, I find the tapes are missing. There\u2019s nothing there. If I really concentrate I can come up with a few decisions about the route, some dark thoughts about the weather, and nothing else. Even then I\u2019m not sure that I didn\u2019t just invent those to make me feel better.<\/p>\n<p>You may like<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s different if I\u2019m <a data-analytics-id=\"inline-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.cyclingweekly.com\/news\/i-went-on-my-first-group-ride-and-its-changed-how-i-feel-about-cycling\" data-mrf-recirculation=\"inline-link\" data-before-rewrite-localise=\"https:\/\/www.cyclingweekly.com\/news\/i-went-on-my-first-group-ride-and-its-changed-how-i-feel-about-cycling\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\">riding with someone<\/a>. Then I can often recall conversations in much more detail than I might if we had them over coffee somewhere. I think the passing landscape gives me some way to associate conversations with places. I get the same thing if I listen to a podcast. But on my own, it\u2019s just a void.<\/p>\n<p>It\u2019s not clear whether I simply don\u2019t think, or whether I do and I just can\u2019t remember it. I\u2019m sure I\u2019m not alone in sometimes forgetting things until they come back hours later. In 2023 I got knocked off by a driver at a junction midway through a tempo effort, landed harmlessly in the verge with no damage done, and only remembered it the next day when there was hard-to-explain grass in my <a data-analytics-id=\"inline-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.cyclingweekly.com\/fitness\/bike-fit\/clipless-pedals-how-to-323672\" data-mrf-recirculation=\"inline-link\" data-before-rewrite-localise=\"https:\/\/www.cyclingweekly.com\/fitness\/bike-fit\/clipless-pedals-how-to-323672\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\">cleats<\/a>. For all I know I\u2019ve perfected cold fusion and developed a unified field theory while riding and completely forgotten both.<\/p>\n<p>It even applies in races, where you\u2019d imagine that the need to react to things would at least leave some trace. But even after a 24-hour race, all that\u2019s left are vague impressions about the weather, and weirdly specific vignettes like a badly-trimmed hedge or a misspelled web address on the back of a plumber\u2019s van.<\/p>\n<p>It only happens with cycling. When I\u2019m not doing that I think about things all the time. Even when I go for a run I can competently get myself stressed about all the things I need to get done when I get home. When I get home I don\u2019t actually do any of them, of course, but that\u2019s not because I can\u2019t remember them. That\u2019s just because I\u2019m rubbish.<\/p>\n<p class=\"newsletter-form__strapline\">The latest race content, interviews, features, reviews and expert buying guides, direct to your inbox!<\/p>\n<p>I can think and drive. I can think and cook. I can even think and think, sort of, in as much as I can write one thing and think about another and only occasionally get them crossed.<\/p>\n<p>A major question is whether this intellectual abyss is still somehow doing me good. Mrs. Doc experiences the same phenomenon and is adamant that it\u2019s a bit like REM sleep \u2013 somehow despite the echoing wastes of nothing at all (\u201cleft, right, left, right\u201d) deep down her brain is sorting things out, getting some filing done, and preparing her to be all the more useful when she gets home.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m not at all convinced. It would be more believable if the first thing she does after any long training session isn\u2019t fall asleep for two hours.<\/p>\n<p>I think the truth of the matter is simple. I don\u2019t believe there\u2019s a long-term cognitive enhancement. I don\u2019t believe I\u2019m somehow thinking super-intelligent thoughts that will one day manifest as a moment of genius. I firmly believe that cycling turns me into a vegetable. And I sort of like that.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Non-cycling friends often say things to me along the lines of: \u201cyou must really be able to get&hellip;\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":339001,"comment_status":"","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[569],"tags":[64,63,784,85],"class_list":{"0":"post-339000","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-cycling","8":"tag-au","9":"tag-australia","10":"tag-cycling","11":"tag-sports"},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/339000","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=339000"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/339000\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/339001"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=339000"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=339000"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=339000"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}