Which means it didn’t come as a major shock to anyone when Julia \ufeffread her husband a letter last Tuesday night, explaining that she couldn’t develop a connection because she didn’t feel a “burning desire”.<\/p>\n
Now, if that didn’t make your heart break a little, what you’re about to read next will.<\/p>\n
Want the official inside scoop on MAFS, unfiltered and unseen? Watch After The Dinner Party here<\/a><\/p>\n We got our hands on an exclusive copy of Grayson’s audition tape, in which he revealed his fears about being unlovable.<\/p>\n “Sometimes I feel like, ‘shit, am I broken?'” He told producers.<\/p>\n “Or, ‘Do I have the ability to connect with someone on an emotional level’?<\/p>\n “I know I can, but I’ve had to really sort of strip back the layers and go … How do I get myself in a position where I can actually feel that again?”<\/p>\n EXCLUSIVE: Grayson reveals the off-camera truth you didn’t see \u2013 plus Julia’s immediate exit after their MAFS 2026 split<\/a><\/p>\n In Pictures<\/p>\n Julia and Grayson’s Wedding Album<\/p>\n The bisexual bride gets more than one surprise on her wedding day.<\/p>\n View Gallery<\/a><\/p>\n In the tape, Grayson said that he was going onto the show to find his “ride or die”. Someone who was not just his partner, but also his “best mate”.<\/p>\n “It’s the missing piece, so I need some help,” he said.<\/p>\n But he did admit he had some reservations about the experiment, saying that some of the men from last year’s season raised some red flags for him.<\/p>\n WATCH: Unseen footage reveals where Bec and Gia’s feud really started \u2013 as Bec issues apology for ‘mortifying’ behaviour<\/a><\/p>\n “There were guys on the show like, what was it? Harrison! Like I’d clash with him,” he said.<\/p>\n “I’d tell him to \u2026 I’d pop off. Like if I saw that, I wouldn’t be able to handle it. I’d tell him to shut the f— up. And I’d make him say it in front of everyone.<\/p>\n “For me, that’s just so wrong. It’s controlling, and I cannot deal with that.\ufeff”<\/p>\n![\"Grayson](\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/https:\/\/prod.static9.net.au\/fs\/025118f7-1047-4d4b-9bf9-f6b39f17bf4f.jpeg\")
Grayson opened up about his relationship fears in his audition tape. (Nine)<\/p>\n![\"\"](\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/au\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/https:\/\/prod.static9.net.au\/fs\/f6864c16-1d01-4ca7-a875-3878e3bcf048.jpeg\")
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Each week, he and Julia have appeared to grow further apart. (Nine)<\/p>\n