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\n\tFor all the intense backlash Lena Dunham<\/a> received following her first memoir in 2014, \u201cNot That Kind of Girl,\u201d one might think she would be cautious about the stories she chose to share in her second memoir.<\/p>\n \n\tBut the \u201cGirls<\/a>\u201d creator didn\u2019t hold back in her long-awaited book, \u201cFamesick,\u201d out Tuesday. One of the biggest headlines to come out of Dunham\u2019s book is undeniably her relationship with \u201cGirls\u201d co-star Adam Driver<\/a>, who she alleges was \u201cverbally aggressive, condescending and physically imposing.\u201d<\/a><\/p>\n \n\tShe also opens up about her unhealthy relationship with \u201cGirls\u201d producer and former best friend Jenni Konner, in addition to the intense shame she felt after the pair wrote a joint statement together in 2017 defending their \u201cGirls\u201d colleague Murray Miller against accusations of sexual assault. In the book, she says she has no memory of writing the statement but time stamps show it would have been the day she got back from the hospital after an intense procedure.<\/p>\n \n\tMuch of the book is bookmarked by the many medical procedures she went through during this time, including a hysterectomy, the surgical removal of the uterus. She reveals her addiction to pain medication following this procedure, and eventually checking herself into rehab. It was during this time that she and Jack Antonoff\u2019s relationship began to falter as he spent extensive time with a \u201cteen pop star\u201d he was working with, and they had one explosive fight following her surgery.<\/p>\n \n\tSome revelations are lower-stakes, including the several bold-faced names who auditioned for \u201cGirls\u201d and a surprise engagement following her breakup with Antonoff.<\/p>\n \n\tHere are some of the biggest revelations from Lena Dunham\u2019s \u201cFamesick.\u201d<\/p>\n \t\tShe opens up about her unhealthy friendship with \u2018Girls\u2019 producer Jenni Konner \u2014 and their eventual fallout.\t<\/p>\n \n\tAt many points in the book, Dunham recalls an unhealthy and toxic relationship with her former best friend and \u201cGirls\u201d producer Jenni Konner before their public, professional split in 2018. When Dunham was struggling with an eating disorder and losing weight, upon moving to Hollywood, she recalls Konner telling her: \u201cI think the issue is that you\u2019re too thin. And the thing is, it\u2019s not funny if you\u2019re too thin, it\u2019s just \u2018Sex and the City\u2019 all over again. What made your movie special was that you weren\u2019t that. If we lose it, we don\u2019t have a clear voice.\u201d<\/p>\n \n\t\u201c\u2018It\u2019s not that hard,\u2019 she hissed. \u2018Just put food in your mouth.\u2019 This didn\u2019t sound like concern to me. It sounded like a threat.\u201d<\/p>\n \n\tDunham writes, \u201cIt was the first time [Konner] had switched roles, from cozy bestie with whom I bandied about ideas to the role she was initially pitched for: \u2018supervisor.\u2019 Only the idea of a supervisor took on a more sinister note: Big Sister is watching you.\u201d<\/p>\n \n\tIt was much later \u2014 after Dunham had undergone a life-altering hysterectomy and a brief rehab stint due to opioid addiction \u2014 that their friendship finally ruptured. \u201cLater, my mother would confess that in the days before rehab, Konner had called her. She had told her that she didn\u2019t understand \u2014 now that the hysterectomy had happened, I was well. That last excuse had been erased. \u2018\u201dAnd she\u2019s clinging to this random diagnosis like it\u2019s an answer,’\u201d she said.<\/p>\n \n\tAt this point, Dunham had kept her addiction largely a secret, including from Konner. After rehab, she finally revealed to her that she was 62 days sober, saying \u201cYou do not make me feel safe or proud, and I cannot speak to you until we are in front of a therapist.\u201d<\/p>\n \n\tDuring the therapy session, Dunham recalls immediately breaking down in tears, telling Konner how important their relationship was to her, still hopeful they\u2019d be be able to talk it out and salvage it. But Konner responded with just one request: \u201cPlease don\u2019t write about this immediately.\u201d<\/p>\n \n\tOnly three minutes into the session, Konner thanked the therapist for his help and left the room. That would be the last time they saw each other. <\/p>\n \n\tDunham says it took her many drafts to even type Konner\u2019s name in the manuscript for \u201cFamesick.\u201d \u201cUltimately, it became clear I was going to have to choose \u2014 between telling an honest story and avoiding any mention of her,\u201d she writes. \u201cI knew she hadn\u2019t said \u2018ever,\u2019 but rather, \u2018immediately\u2019 \u2014 but it\u2019s telling that even, seven and a half years later after last laying eyes on her, it still feels immediate.<\/p>\n \t\tShe recalls Jack Antonoff spending a lot of time with a \u201cteen pop star\u201d before their breakup.\t<\/p>\n \n\tAs Dunham and Antonoff\u2019s relationship began to falter, he started spending a lot of time with a \u201cteen pop star.\u201d \u201cOne day I returned home from a bone density test to find her sprawled across our sectional couch, weeping into Jack\u2019s lap as he told her that \u2018your teens are for experimenting\u2019 in a tone so comforting, it almost brought tears to my eyes. It had been so long since he\u2019d spoken to me with that kind of expansive generosity.\u201d<\/p>\n \n\tAfter a huge fight following her hysterectomy, Dunham and Antonoff decided to take a break. They still lived in the same house (although Antonoff was frequently away on tour) and the terms of the nascent split were ambiguous. At first, Dunham was cautious about pursuing any type of relationship with another man, observing \u201ccareful boundaries.\u201d But, she writes, \u201cIf I wanted to look, perhaps I may have seen that Jack was not observing them as closely as I was.\u201d<\/p>\n \n\tShe writes that she was aware of the online discourse surrounding her relationship, particularly one viral PowerPoint tracking Antonoff\u2019s alleged affair with Lorde (which readers can assume is the \u201cteen pop star\u201d Dunham refers to earlier in the book). They were \u201cso convincing that they had me rethinking events that I myself had been present for,\u201d she writes. She DM\u2019d the maker of the PowerPoint, Hillary Benton, prove that \u201cshe was in on the joke.\u201d But when Benton asked if she wanted to be on her podcast, she declined. <\/p>\n \t\tDunham began an affair with an old childhood friend, and got engaged a month after reuniting.\t<\/p>\n \n\tSoon after, Dunham reunited with an old childhood friend, Nick. \u201cI decided, then and there, that the only thing that could save me was to be wanted,\u201d she recalls thinking.<\/p>\n \n\tThe pair only saw each other a few times during this period but once Antonoff and Dunham ultimately broke up, they began an intense, three-month long affair. She describes them both as being high for the majority of the relationship (him, smoking day and night; her, on a variety of pain medications, Klonopin and weed). <\/p>\n \n\tOnly one month after their first kiss, he proposed to her. \u201cI was high when I said yes,\u201d she writes. They told their families and planned on getting married that August but Dunham\u2019s addiction became harder to ignore. She eventually checked into a rehab, breaking up with Nick shortly after. <\/p>\n \t\tShe accuses Adam Driver of \u201cverbally aggressive, condescending and physically imposing\u201d behavior.\t<\/p>\n