ITV News<\/a>, the 25-year-old said she thought she was experiencing symptoms from the pregnancy on 18 March when she was shaking and had a temperature of 42C but the Aston Villa team doctor, Dr Jodie Blackadder-Weinstein, told her she needed to call Walsh and get to hospital.<\/p>\n\u201cIt was one of the biggest shocks of my life,\u201d said Kearns, who found out she had lost the baby and had sepsis. \u201cI\u2019d literally been doing pilates and gym an hour before, and my whole life just changed like that.\u201d<\/p>\n
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They went through \u201cfour days of hell in hospital\u201d, said Kearns. \u201cI don\u2019t think we realised how much we went through until now, when you sit back \u2026 I\u2019m so thankful for the doctors here at Villa, they probably saved my life because I had sepsis, and while having that, I wasn\u2019t even thinking about the sepsis, it was: \u2018I\u2019ve lost my child.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n
The psychological impact has been difficult and the England international said she hoped sharing her story would help others.<\/p>\n
\u201cPeople might not realise how much of a toll it actually has on someone. Obviously, everyone knows how hard it must be to lose a child, but because of the highs of finding out you\u2019re pregnant, and the stress of being pregnant, and like, the worries of getting past the 12-week mark, it\u2019s so stressful, even though it\u2019s so exciting. To then have that crash, and then suddenly you\u2019re not pregnant, and your hormones change, your symptoms start to go, like overnight, it\u2019s a different type of grief.<\/p>\n
\u201cPeople don\u2019t tell people that they\u2019ve been through it. They suffer in silence, and I just hope that people may not suffer in silence now, knowing that, like I\u2019m here, if anyone wants to speak, there are charities like Tommy\u2019s and so many other charities if anyone needs them.\u201d<\/p>\n
Being back at Villa and getting back to normal life is \u201cwhen it starts to feel real\u201d, she said. \u201cWhen you realise the plans that you had coming up aren\u2019t the same plans any more, this is when it starts to hit you,\u201d she said. \u201cThe past week or so is where it\u2019s hit me. Most of them, I\u2019ve been struggling, a lot more than the first week or so. I\u2019ve been trying to keep myself busy. I wouldn\u2019t say I\u2019m fully coping \u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cYou actually feel like you\u2019re the only person it\u2019s ever happened to. But really, it\u2019s so common, and that\u2019s why I think it\u2019s important that the message is out there.\u201d<\/p>\n
Kearns is grateful too that she is still here and is young. \u201cWe\u2019ve still got more opportunities going forward, when the time\u2019s right and when we\u2019re ready,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
The target remains next year\u2019s World Cup: \u201cMy plan while I was pregnant was to make the World Cup squad, and that\u2019s not changed \u2026 I\u2019ve realised there\u2019s more to life than football, but now I\u2019m going to enjoy every minute of football like it\u2019s my last because it could have been.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Missy Bo Kearns has described experiencing \u201ca different type of grief\u201d after having a miscarriage last month. The…\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":413201,"comment_status":"","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[85,46,105],"class_list":["post-413200","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","category-sports","tag-il","tag-israel","tag-sports"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/413200","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=413200"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/413200\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/413201"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=413200"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=413200"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/il\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=413200"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}