She detailed her 2019 health struggles in a video updating fans on her upcoming album.
“A lot of you asking where my record is at. It’s done. My record’s done. It’s kind of been done. It’s a really good record. I put a lot into it,” she said in the clip.
“I went to England in 2019, and when I went there, my body just exploded. It just exploded, and I was in hospitals a lot,” she continued.
“I almost died. I lost all my hair. I was about 100 pounds [45kg], and they told me I was going to die, and I didn’t believe them.”
Courtney Love shared the update with fans on social media over the weekend. Photo / Instagram
The singer says her distrust of doctors comes from her upbringing and her rocky relationship with her parents and the adults in her life.
“When I was a kid – and I think this record is about this – I used to pattern-interrupt the adults, and they’d tell me ‘red’. They’d say red was blue, and then I’d see blue, but blue was blue,” she continued.
“So now that I gaslight myself that maybe, maybe they were right and red was blue, and then I would see purple, and my head would explode. Like f***ing cope with that s***, right? I think some of you can relate to that.
“And then, anyway, I never really lost my ability to see that f***ing – that red was red, despite them telling me that red was blue,” Love added. “And so when they said you’re gonna die, I just didn’t believe them. And somehow I got better. I’m healthy, which is amazing.”
Love said she wrote this upcoming album while she was in and out of hospital in 2019, and at the time believed it would be her last record.
“I wanted to give you an update on my record . When I made it, I believed this was my last record so I made the record I always wanted to make. I was in the hospital mostly but when I wasn’t all I did was write & record it,” Love wrote.
She added that now that she’s healthy, she wants to tour and sing “more than anything”.
“I will be back, I wasn’t public about being sick. I don’t want to be public about being sick. You know, I’m fine now,” she told fans.