\u201cIt was my first experience of even trying to get pregnant and I thought, there\u2019s no way, because I\u2019m ancient,\u201d Welch said. \u201cIt was a big shock. But it felt magical, as well. I felt I had followed a bodily instinct, in that animal sense, and it had happened.<\/p>\n
\u201cI think, because it was my first time being pregnant and it was my first miscarriage, I was like, okay, I\u2019ve heard this is part of it. I spoke to my doctor and they are not generally dangerous. Devastating, but not dangerous. Emotionally, I was sad and scared, but I think, also, I was coping. With physical stuff, I have a strange, otherworldly strength. Emotionally, I\u2019m an absolute nightmare. Literally, will crumble. But broken bone? Fine. Internal bleeding? Let\u2019s go.\u201d<\/p>\n
Welch was due to headline a festival in Cornwall, so she pushed ahead \u2013 but her doctor insisted she go for a scan afterwards as she was feeling unwell.<\/p>\n
\u201cWomen! It\u2019s funny. I took some Ibuprofen and stepped out on stage,\u201d she said. \u201cI was in the elements, in the wind and rain, and I just felt something working through me. And I felt this thing take over, the thing that\u2019s always there, the safe space of performance.<\/p>\n
\u201cDo you know the f*****-up thing? I didn\u2019t want to go for the scan. I thought, I\u2019ve done this show, I\u2019m fine, I can cope. But my doctor\u2019s insistence that I come in saved my life.<\/p>\n
\u201cI started to panic. I had a Coke can\u2019s worth of blood in my abdomen. I tried to run away. I couldn\u2019t go anywhere! Then I was so embarrassed that I was causing a fuss.<\/p>\n
\u201cIt was animal instinct. Like, run. But there was an [ultrasound wand] inside me and a woman I\u2019d never met before and I was like, gotta go! If I\u2019d got on [a] plane, I\u2019d have come off on a stretcher. Or worse. I think the sound that came out of me was like a wounded animal or something. And then, that was that. Ten days later, I was back on stage.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"\u201cIt was my first experience of even trying to get pregnant and I thought, there\u2019s no way, because…\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":47783,"comment_status":"","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[74,95,6179,41630,156,41629,21737,18977,11692,111,139,69,90,2680,5994,810,38405],"class_list":["post-47782","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","category-entertainment","tag-after","tag-and","tag-died","tag-ectopic","tag-entertainment","tag-florence","tag-lifethreatening","tag-miscarriage","tag-nearly","tag-new-zealand","tag-newzealand","tag-nz","tag-on","tag-opens","tag-pregnancy","tag-up","tag-welch"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47782","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=47782"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47782\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/47783"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=47782"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=47782"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/nz\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=47782"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}