{"id":204694,"date":"2025-10-16T17:47:12","date_gmt":"2025-10-16T17:47:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/204694\/"},"modified":"2025-10-16T17:47:12","modified_gmt":"2025-10-16T17:47:12","slug":"prince-william-has-empowered-me-to-speak-about-my-mental-health-crisis-royal-news","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/204694\/","title":{"rendered":"Prince William has empowered me to speak about my mental health crisis | Royal | News"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Emily<\/p>\n

Express Royal Editor Emily Ferguson bravely shares her own deeply-personal story (Image: Daily Express \/ Emily Ferguson)<\/p>\n

Last week I reported on the Prince of Wales\u2019s film discussing the impact of suicide<\/a>, an eight-minute video that I haven\u2019t stopped thinking about since. As with many of these types of releases, I got an advanced preview of the film the day before it aired, and two things have stayed with me.<\/p>\n

Firstly, the unimaginable pain Rhian Mannings went through after losing her husband to suicide just five days after her one-year-old son died from a seizure.<\/p>\n

And secondly, William\u2019s words \u2013 \u201cThe best way to prevent suicide is to talk about it. Talk about it early, talk about it with your loved ones, those you trust, your friends\u201d \u2013 as that\u2019s something I\u2019ve never had the courage to do. But watching that film, hearing the devastating effect it had on Rhian and her family, and lauding the future king for urging people to speak up<\/a>, I\u2019ve found a strength I didn\u2019t know I had.<\/p>\n

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Undated family handout photo of Rhian Mannings, Paul Burke and son George (Image: PA)<\/p>\n

Over the years, I\u2019ve been quite honest and upfront about my mental health issues, having had depression and anxiety since my late teens. And while I\u2019m not afraid to talk about it, most people have no idea that underneath the bubbly young woman, there\u2019s a darkness that threatens to take over at any point.<\/p>\n

But there\u2019s one period I haven\u2019t ever discussed, even with my closest friends and family. It\u2019s been buried like it never happened \u2013but it did, and last week\u2019s film has empowered me to speak about it for the first time.<\/p>\n

On April 23, 2016, I could no longer cope with the sadness that engulfed every fibre of my being. The darkness had become me and I just wanted it to stop.<\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t see a way out, a way forward. I had no hope left, and I didn\u2019t have the strength to keep fighting it. I just wanted to fall asleep and never wake up, so I didn\u2019t have to go through the daily agony I was experiencing.<\/p>\n

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Rhian Mannings sat down for tea and cake with the Prince earlier this month (Image: Kensington Palace)<\/p>\n

Even now, I struggle to put that feeling into words. It\u2019s one of hopelessness, despair, like the black cloud in my head had swallowed me whole, blocking out the daylight and any hope of feeling happy again. So one night, desperate for the torment I was feeling inside to stop, I decided to take action. The seconds, minutes, and hours afterwards are all a bit of a blur.<\/p>\n

I remember my flatmates hugging me, the paramedics attaching cords to my chest and the painfully bright lights of A&E. I remember being prodded by needles, being told to try and stay awake and repeatedly throwing up the poisonous cocktail I had made. By the time I was moved to a ward, I remember trying to move from one bed to another, but my legs gave way. I couldn\u2019t stand up or hold my weight.<\/p>\n

That was when I started to panic: What had I done?<\/p>\n

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Prince William was visibly moved by Rhian’s story (Image: Kensington Palace)<\/p>\n

Over the next few days, I was pumped full of all the right drugs and had someone check on me every half an hour. After a mental health assessment and my parents\u2019 reassurance that they would keep a watchful eye over me, I was discharged \u2013 not back to university, but back home.<\/p>\n

Over the coming months, I began to heal, both physically and mentally, and threw myself into my hobby of bowls<\/a> as a distraction. I returned to uni the following year, alongside my beloved friends, and moved on with my life \u2013 as if nothing had ever happened. It wasn\u2019t something I, my friends, or my family ever talked about.<\/p>\n

Maybe it\u2019s because we didn\u2019t know how, maybe it\u2019s because of shame, and maybe because it didn\u2019t match up to who I was anymore.<\/p>\n

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On April 23, 2016, I could no longer cope with the sadness that engulfed every fibre of my being (Image: Tim Merry \/ Daily Express)<\/p>\n

I still have low periods and panic attacks, but for the most part, I\u2019m in control. I manage my triggers and know how to come out the other side. That was up until this summer, when for the first time in almost 10 years, the despair I had felt at uni came creeping back. It was terrifying. The suicidal thoughts I thought had completely gone away had come back.<\/p>\n

I couldn\u2019t focus at work and bowls was no longer a distraction, as my anxiety had manifested itself into the yips, causing me to freeze. Instead of mindlessly delivering my bowls, I became paralysed and couldn\u2019t let them go. It was excruciating, having so many eyes on me as I stood like an idiot struggling to perform such a simple task.<\/p>\n

But this time, I didn\u2019t bottle things up or hide how I was feeling. I confided in my boyfriend, my best friend, my parents, my doctor and my boss.<\/p>\n

I took some time for myself, sought out a new therapist, changed medication and painfully persevered at bowls as I knew if I gave up, I would be turning my back on the sport I had loved for so many years.<\/p>\n

\"Emily<\/p>\n

I still have low periods and panic attacks, but for the most part, I\u2019m in control. (Image: Tim Merry \/ Daily Express)<\/p>\n

And now, as I\u2019ve come out the other side a second time, I feel proud that I didn\u2019t give up. I\u2019m grateful for the life I have, the career I\u2019ve worked so hard for, the sport I give so much to, and my body for continuing to support me.<\/p>\n

But most of all, I\u2019m thankful to be surrounded by incredibly supportive family, friends and colleagues.<\/p>\n

I don\u2019t know why depression chose to embed its claws in me; there\u2019s no hidden trauma, and I grew up surrounded by love. But I know one thing, I won\u2019t let it beat me. It\u2019s an inoperable tumour, but I\u2019ll do my best to keep shrinking it and preventing it from taking hold. And what\u2019s more, I hope that I\u2019m not the only one that the prince has inspired to open up and talk about the invisible battles that affect so many people.<\/p>\n

Writing this hasn\u2019t been easy, but I hope that by talking about how I\u2019ve come through my own crisis, I can help others see that there is a way out, and the most important thing is to speak about how you\u2019re feeling. Whether that\u2019s to your doctor, or a trusted friend or family member. If that feels too hard, reach out \u2013 as I can attest, help is out there.<\/p>\n

Information and support can be found at the Hub of Hope, the UK\u2019s largest mental health support directory hubofhope.co.uk<\/a> Text SHOUT to 85258; or call the Samaritans free at any time on 116 123. Lines are open 24 hours a day. You can also email jo@samaritans.org<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Express Royal Editor Emily Ferguson bravely shares her own deeply-personal story (Image: Daily Express \/ Emily Ferguson) Last…\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":204695,"comment_status":"","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[96,59,88491,120,3535,88490,2746,83451,83449,9728,56,54,55],"class_list":["post-204694","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","category-entertainment","tag-entertainment","tag-gb","tag-mental-health-mental-health-section","tag-prince-william","tag-prince-william-latest","tag-prince-william-mental-health","tag-prince-william-news","tag-prince-william-suicide","tag-sensitive","tag-suicide","tag-uk","tag-united-kingdom","tag-unitedkingdom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/204694","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=204694"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/204694\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/204695"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=204694"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=204694"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=204694"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}