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\n\t\tJohn Torode has started to talk about his MasterChef sacking (Picture: BBC)<\/p>\n
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\n\t\tJohn Torode has started to talk about his MasterChef sacking (Picture: BBC)<\/p>\n
Former MasterChef<\/a> presenter John Torode<\/a> has revealed he\u2019s started seeing a therapist to deal with the \u2018grief\u2019 he feels following his BBC<\/a> exit.<\/p>\n Torode, 60, was fired from the cooking competition earlier this year after an investigation into \u2018inappropriate conduct\u2019 behind the scenes involving his TV co-host Gregg Wallace.<\/p>\n The off-camera behaviour of Wallace, 61, was the centre of a BBC probe that eventually upheld 45 claims against him<\/a>, which he later apologised for.<\/p>\n It was then found that Torode had used \u2018racist language\u2019 on two separate occasions<\/a> while working for the BBC, amid a total of nine alleged complaints.<\/p>\n Now Torode has revealed that, in the months since his removal as MasterChef co-host, he\u2019s been seeing a therapist to help him get over the \u2018grief\u2019 he\u2019s felt.<\/p>\n Speaking in his online newsletter, A View From the Fridge<\/a>, he said: \u2018Therapy over the past few months has entitled me to no longer \u201cbe brave\u201d but instead be real.<\/p>\n \t\t \u2018Fear is the instinct that keeps us alive, but should grief and fear meet each other I wonder how much damage it can do when we decide to shut it away.\u2019<\/p>\n He continued: \u2018What is becoming easier is being able to talk and to vocalise how I feel as I come to terms with the past 5 months and the impact it has had.<\/p>\n \u2018My tumultuous physical, illogical and physiological state of mind has not been easy\u2026 Life has changed forever for me and for those close to me. There is no sympathy searching here, just honesty.\u2019<\/p>\n \t\t \t\t He added: \u2018[Life has] ups and downs, good and bad, highs and lows as well as ins and outs. I guess I can call it life over the past five months.\u2019<\/p>\n Torode revealed he has started to write a newsletter to \u2018find a rhythm\u2019 and also learn that he can take \u2018solace\u2019 from life being unpredictable.<\/p>\n He said that with each newsletter, he feels a little \u2018braver\u2019 before thanking his followers for supporting this latest venture, which he publishes through Substack.<\/p>\n Viewers were surprised last month when a new Celebrity MasterChef series began and John Torode took to the screen alongside Wallace\u2019s replacement Grace Dent<\/a>.<\/p>\n Having been axed in July, fans expected his last MasterChef appearance to have been alongside Wallace in the final season recorded before the investigation was concluded.<\/p>\n \t\t\t\tMasterChef controversy timeline\t\t\t<\/p>\n October 2024 \u2013 Misconduct claims against Gregg Wallace first emerge<\/p>\n November 2024 \u2013 Gregg Wallace steps away from MasterChef amid allegations<\/p>\n December 2024 \u2013 Gregg Wallace makes statement against \u2018middle-class women of a certain age\u2019<\/p>\n December 2024 \u2013 BBC pulls MasterChef Christmas special<\/p>\n December 2024 \u2013 Grace Dent announced as Gregg Wallace\u2019s replacement<\/p>\n April 2025 \u2013 Gregg Wallace reveals suicidal thoughts after investigation<\/p>\n July 2025 \u2013 Gregg Wallace plans to sue BBC and apologises after 45 allegations are upheld<\/p>\n July 2025 \u2013 John Torode sacked from MasterChef \u2018for using racist language\u2019<\/p>\n \t\t However, Torode stayed at the BBC slightly longer than Wallace, which meant he was able to film a handful of Celebrity MasterChef<\/a> episodes alongside Grace Dent.<\/p>\n Speaking to the Sunday Times<\/a> about Torode, Dent said: \u2018I absolutely adore John Torode. He is one of the kindest, most concerned, clever, thoughtful men that I know.<\/p>\n \u2018After reading the entire [inquiry] report, my recollections of having a nice time with him, drinking\u00a0coffee<\/a>\u00a0and having a biscuit now and again is pretty much irrelevant.\u2019<\/p>\n She continued: \u2018For me to sit here now and go, \u201cWell, that\u2019s not the Gregg that I knew,\u201d is beside the point because it\u2019s not about what I think.\u2019<\/p>\n She added: \u2018He said an awful lot, and that was during the point when I was starting my new [MasterChef] job and I utterly cut myself off from all of that.\u2019<\/p>\n Watch Celebrity MasterChef on BBC One. Monday, December 8, 9pm.<\/p>\n Got a story?<\/p>\n If you\u2019ve got a celebrity story, video or pictures get in touch with the Metro.co.uk<\/a> entertainment team by emailing us celebtips@metro.co.uk, calling 020 3615 2145 or by visiting our Submit Stuff<\/a> page \u2013 we\u2019d love to hear from you.<\/p>\n Arrow Arrow Arrow![\"John](\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/SEI_258999136-1012-e1760704131792.jpg\")
\n\t\tTorode was sacked from the BBC in July (Picture: BBC\/Shine TV)<\/p>\n![\"File](\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/SEI_258988889-ee7f.jpg\")
\n\t\tTorode and Gregg Wallace were both sacked following an investigation (Picture: PA Wire)<\/p>\n![\"Uncleared](\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/SEI_261361650-af16.jpg\")
\n\t\tHe says writing a newsletter is making him \u2018braver\u2019 week by week (Picture: BBC)<\/p>\n![\"Editorial](\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/SEI_257839764-64ea.jpg\")
\n\t\t\u2018My tumultuous physical, illogical and physiological state of mind has not been easy\u2026\u2019 (Picture: Geraint Warrington\/Shutterstock)<\/p>\n
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