{"id":515221,"date":"2026-04-06T03:23:13","date_gmt":"2026-04-06T03:23:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/515221\/"},"modified":"2026-04-06T03:23:13","modified_gmt":"2026-04-06T03:23:13","slug":"niall-horan-questions-could-i-have-done-more-in-heartbreaking-liam-payne-admission","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/515221\/","title":{"rendered":"Niall Horan questions &#8216;could I have done more&#8217; in heartbreaking Liam Payne admission"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Niall Horan has spoken out about his late bandmate, Liam Payne, and revealed he often questions whether he could have done more for the One Direction legend<a class=\"AuthorLink_author-link__rg5qj\" data-tmdatatrack=\"author\" data-testid=\"byline-author\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/authors\/daniel-bird\/\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\" target=\"_blank\">Daniel Bird<\/a> Assistant Celebrity and Entertainment Editor<\/p>\n<p>19:53, 05 Apr 2026<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"Niall Horan has spoken candidly about dealing with the heartache of losing his friend and former bandmate, Liam Payne\" loading=\"eager\"  src=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/0_1027-KIIS-FMs-Jingle-Ball-BACKSTAGE.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p aria-label=\"Niall Horan has spoken candidly about dealing with the heartache of losing his friend and former bandmate, Liam Payne\" class=\"ImageCaption_caption-title__ccyQU\" data-testid=\"caption-title\">Niall Horan has spoken candidly about dealing with the heartache of losing his friend and former bandmate, Liam Payne(Image: Getty Images for iHeartMedia)<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\"><a aria-label=\"Niall HoranLink opens in a new tab.\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/all-about\/niall-horan\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"_blank\">Niall Horan<\/a> has revealed he questions &#8220;could I have done more&#8221; for <a aria-label=\"Liam PayneLink opens in a new tab.\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/all-about\/liam-payne\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"_blank\">Liam Payne<\/a>. Niall had spent time with his former <a aria-label=\"\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/all-about\/one-direction\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"\">One Direction<\/a> bandmate just days before he tragically died in October 2024, aged 31.<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">Payne <a aria-label=\"fell from the balcony of his third-floor hotel roomLink opens in a new tab.\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/3am\/celebrity-news\/breaking-liam-payne-dies-aged-33908829\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"_blank\">fell from the balcony of his third-floor hotel room<\/a> in Buenos Aires, Argentina. Payne had been in the Latin American country to attend an appointment for an American O visa renewal at the US embassy in Buenos Aires. Meanwhile, Dinner Party singer Horan had been performing in Latin America on his sold-out tour at the <a aria-label=\"time of seeing Payne.Link opens in a new tab.\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/3am\/celebrity-news\/niall-horan-says-new-song-36896006\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"_blank\">time of seeing Payne.<\/a><\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">The pair happily posed for pictures together, <a aria-label=\"which Liam shared on his social media pagesLink opens in a new tab.\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/3am\/celebrity-news\/liam-payne-niall-horan-ended-33919106\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"_blank\">which Liam shared on his social media pages<\/a>, warming the hearts of fans who had longed for a One Direction reunion. In the snaps, both Liam and Niall were beaming from ear-to-ear being in the company of one another again.<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"Niall spent time with Liam shortly before the music star tragically died\" loading=\"lazy\"  src=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/0_Liam-Payne.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p aria-label=\"Niall spent time with Liam shortly before the music star tragically died\" class=\"ImageCaption_caption-title__ccyQU\" data-testid=\"caption-title\">Niall spent time with Liam shortly before the music star tragically died(Image: Snapchat)<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"Niall and Liam had been friends since they were 16 and found fame with One Direction\" loading=\"lazy\"  src=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/0_JS348644459.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p aria-label=\"Niall and Liam had been friends since they were 16 and found fame with One Direction\" class=\"ImageCaption_caption-title__ccyQU\" data-testid=\"caption-title\">Niall and Liam had been friends since they were 16 and found fame with One Direction<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">In a new interview, he recalled meeting with Payne in the daytime before spending time together in Niall&#8217;s dressing room at the arena, but two years on from Liam&#8217;s heartbreaking death, Niall has shared how he questions whether more could have been done for the late singer.<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">&#8220;You go through &#8216;what could I have done if I&#8217;d known more?&#8217;,&#8221; he said, adding: &#8220;Should I have dug more into it? Could I talk to other people to get an angle on it? You can go through all sorts of stuff. &#8216;Cause I&#8217;d seen him a couple of weeks previous, I was bit like &#8216;Jesus&#8217;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">Speaking on the Tommy Tiernan Show, Niall said of seeing Payne: &#8220;It was great to see Liam.&#8221; Reflecting on the shattering moment he found out Liam had died, Niall continued: &#8221; Tour ends, then I finished in <a aria-label=\"\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/all-about\/colombia\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"\">Colombia<\/a>, then about a week later, went home. I was only home after a big, long stint on the road. End of the tour, and then I was just at home one night.<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"In a new interview, Niall opened up about the constant battle of experiencing grief and the new challenges it brings up \" loading=\"lazy\"  src=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/0_Niall-Horan-admits-to-questioning-if-he-couldve-done-more-to-help-Liam-Payne.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p aria-label=\"In a new interview, Niall opened up about the constant battle of experiencing grief and the new challenges it brings up \" class=\"ImageCaption_caption-title__ccyQU\" data-testid=\"caption-title\">In a new interview, Niall opened up about the constant battle of experiencing grief and the new challenges it brings up (Image: RT\u00c9 )<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">&#8220;I don&#8217;t know what day of the week it was. Can&#8217;t remember. And just looked down at my phone. I&#8217;d gotten a text. I was about to go to sleep, and the phone lights up, and you have a look, one last look. And I was&#8230; Pure shock. I knew he&#8217;d had a couple of issues, but because I wasn&#8217;t around him like I was in previous years, all the time, I didn&#8217;t realise to what extent.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">Niall explained he &#8220;knew stuff was going on&#8221; but wasn&#8217;t aware of the depth of Liam&#8217;s personal struggles. &#8220;You go through how, why, the stages of grief, that I probably really haven&#8217;t touched the sides on yet,&#8221; Niall said. In a heartbreaking moment, he explained how he grew up with Payne from the age of 16 and faced the ultimate heartache of losing a close friend.<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">The Irish hitmaker said looking down at his phone on the night Liam died was the ultimate &#8220;shock&#8221; to see the news. But the struggle became even worse when Horan watched news outlets, seeing his face in pictures with Liam on TV. &#8220;I found that very <a aria-label=\"\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/news\/weird-news\/\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"\">weird<\/a>,&#8221; he said.<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">&#8220;I don&#8217;t think I&#8217;ve gotten my head around it at all, really,&#8221; he commented, saying: &#8220;As I said, I&#8217;ve known that I shared a room with him with one of those stages at the <a aria-label=\"\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.mirror.co.uk\/all-about\/x-factor\" rel=\"follow nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"\">X Factor<\/a>. I&#8217;ve known him since I was 16 years old. And all of a sudden he&#8217;s 32 and&#8230; I also just kept thinking of his little son and things like that.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">For Niall, he says he decided to zone out of the news after seeing people he had worked with in One Direction giving interviews about Payne. This was a decision he made in order to focus on himself and process his own grief. &#8220;All that stuff is irrelevant to me. I have memories; I want to think about him in that way,&#8221; he said.<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">Two years on, Niall still hasn&#8217;t &#8220;wrapped his own head&#8221; around the tragic news. And part of processing his grief saw Niall pen the song, End of an Era, taken from his upcoming album, Dinner Party, featuring lyrics including: &#8220;We had it, pure magic, remember what it was like, time passes, so fast, and I couldn&#8217;t tell you goodbye.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">If you have been affected by this story, Cruse Bereavement Support offers free help to make sense of how you are feeling. <a aria-label=\"\" class=\"TextLink_text-link__dBSS0 TextLink_enabled__dJF3l\" href=\"https:\/\/www.cruse.org.uk\/get-support\/helpline\/\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\" tabindex=\"0\" target=\"\">Click here for their website<\/a> or call 0808 808 1677.<\/p>\n<p class=\"Paragraph_paragraph-text__PVKlh \" data-tmdatatrack=\"content-unit\" data-tmdatatrack-type=\"paragraph\">Like this story? 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