Jeffrey Gantwerker always wanted to be a father and was elated when his first child was born. He can clearly remember the first few minutes of his son\u2019s life, the delight of cradling him skin-to-skin and booping his tiny nose.<\/p>\n
But soon, Mr. Gantwerker said, he began feeling an \u201cimpending sense of crushing doom,\u201d became overwhelmingly anxious and wanted to be with the baby constantly.<\/p>\n
He was fixated on how each moment represented a version of his son that would vanish too fast. \u201cI got this idea stuck in my head that he changed so quickly that every time it was him dying,\u201d he said. He knew there would be a new version, \u201cand of course I was going to love the new one, but I was going to miss the old one, who was dead.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mr. Gantwerker, 46, a program manager for the Mars candy company in Chicago, told himself, \u201cI need to enjoy this with him and teach him and make him feel loved.\u201d But, he said, he was \u201ctrying so hard to make the most out of every minute, I couldn\u2019t even appreciate it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Eventually a psychologist told him he was experiencing a form of postpartum depression, which researchers are increasingly finding can be experienced by fathers too.<\/p>\n
\u201cDads are at risk for the same things that mothers go through,\u201d said Sheehan Fisher, a perinatal clinical psychologist at Northwestern University. He said an estimated 10 percent of fathers develop symptoms like depression and anxiety during the perinatal period, from pregnancy through the first year after childbirth.<\/p>\n
That\u2019s about half the percentage of mothers who develop such symptoms, Dr. Fisher said, noting that for women and men, \u201cpostpartum depression\u201d is often shorthand for perinatal mood and anxiety disorders, a category that includes conditions like anxiety and obsessive-compulsive disorder.<\/p>\n
Some experts say such conditions in fathers may be more common than the numbers suggest, partly because men may be less likely to seek help than women are and often have different symptoms.<\/p>\n
Daniel Singley, a psychologist in San Diego who founded a therapy center for men, said depressed fathers are more prone to express aggravation, annoyance or even rage. \u201cUnder that is feeling hurt, sad, afraid, ashamed, helpless, hopeless, but what we see externally is anger and irritability,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n
Paternal depression may manifest in physical symptoms like muscle tension or stomach pain. And men are considered more likely to mask symptoms with behaviors that can be detrimental, including drugs, alcohol or gambling, Dr. Singley said. <\/p>\n
Dr. Fisher said some men believe they should only prioritize supporting the baby\u2019s mother\u2019s concerns over their symptoms and some have \u201ca hesitancy to admit\u201d that they are struggling.<\/p>\n
Christopher Choukalas, the author of \u201cEven the Darkest Night,\u201d a book about his experience with what he calls postnatal depression, said he felt overwhelmed and disconnected. Grasping for control over what he considered to be the chaos of raising twin daughters, he rigidly tracked their sleep and feeding schedules, snapping at his wife if outings interfered with nap time. \u201cOnly when they were asleep could I breathe,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n
\u201cI thought other people were the problem,\u201d he added. \u201cI thought this is how you\u2019re supposed to do it, and the fact that my wife can\u2019t get on board, it means that she\u2019s the problem \u2014 she\u2019s too casual, and I\u2019m normal.\u201d<\/p>\n
Dr. Choukalas, 51, an anesthesiologist who is a professor at the University of California, San Francisco, said it might seem surprising that a doctor accustomed to high-stress situations would be daunted by parenting healthy babies. In his book, he suggested some possible factors: his childhood with a depressed mother and an absent father, and a frightening episode in which his wife required urgent treatment for life-threatening blood loss after childbirth.<\/p>\n
During the twins\u2019 infancy, he would retreat to the garage, \u201cwhere I\u2019d sit in the dark, alone and afraid,\u201d he wrote in the book.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019d wait as long as I could before going into the house,\u201d he wrote, \u201cbalancing my need to not be around the girls with the guilt and shame I\u2019d feel for not \u2018pitching in,\u2019 for not \u2018being a good dad and husband.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n
Sometimes, he said, when his wife was out with the babies and he could not reach her, \u201cmy immediate thought was they got in a car crash and they\u2019re all gone, and there was kind of this almost escapism about feeling that way, because then I could be free.\u201d<\/p>\n
Eventually, at his wife\u2019s suggestion, he began seeing a therapist, which, along with an antidepressant, gradually helped.<\/p>\n
Dr. Choukalas said he has heard some women say he should not describe his symptoms as postnatal depression, because they consider it a women\u2019s condition and \u201cthis is not men\u2019s space.\u201d But other women tell him their husbands have experienced similar issues.<\/p>\n
Darby Saxbe, a psychology professor at the University of Southern California and the author of \u201cDad Brain: The New Science of Fatherhood and How It Shapes Men\u2019s Lives,\u201d said perinatal depression in both sexes probably stems from several factors, including changes to routines, responsibilities, sleep, relationships and one\u2019s sense of identity.<\/p>\n
Societal messages that \u201chaving a new baby is an unalloyed good,\u201d Dr. Saxbe said, can make it difficult to accept negative aspects like feeling isolated or drained. And some men may wrestle to balance expectations that fathers be hands-on with child care but also be breadwinners, she said.<\/p>\n
Hormones also play a role. Estrogen surges during pregnancy and plunges with childbirth, a drop-off that appears to drive depression for some women. In men, testosterone levels drop with fatherhood<\/a>, especially when fathers engage in child care, research shows. (Scientists think this might be an evolutionary adaptation that encourages men to become more involved in the family instead of sowing their oats.) Dr. Saxbe said studies suggest links between lower testosterone and depression, but the picture is complex<\/a>, because high testosterone can also have negative effects on family relationships<\/a> and on a father\u2019s adaptation to parenting.<\/p>\n About half of perinatal depression cases in women start in pregnancy, and the first postpartum weeks are considered a high-risk period. For men, Dr. Fisher said, the riskiest window is three to six months after babies are born, possibly related to the infants\u2019 growing needs and activity or to the mothers returning to work.<\/p>\n Previous depression increases risk, and one parent\u2019s mental health often affects the other. \u201cThe number one risk factor for paternal postpartum depression is maternal postpartum depression,\u201d said Dr. Singley, the psychologist in San Diego.<\/p>\n When Christopher Rose, 44, a video game producer in Richmond, Calif., experienced depression, his wife, Lisette Lopez-Rose, was also struggling, and both showed \u201csigns of depression, anxiety, OCD, rage,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n After his wife joined support groups run by Postpartum Support International, a nonprofit, he began attending a fathers\u2019 group, ultimately leading one himself. He saw a therapist, who suggested strategies like checking the baby monitor less often and recognizing that getting angry at his cats for meowing was unreasonable.<\/p>\n From other parents, the couple learned the idea of naming their anger something they considered amusing or absurd. They called theirs \u201cRyan Seacrest\u201d because they were not fans of the actor. When one of them said \u201c\u2018Ryan Seacrest is in the house,\u2019 that was a trigger for both of us to know that, hey, one of us is feeling angry,\u201d Mr. Rose said. <\/p>\n Mr. Gantwerker sought help from Dr. Fisher months after his son\u2019s birth in 2019, when his wife said he looked miserable, shattering his illusion that he had managed to hide his anxiety.<\/p>\n By that point, he would often sleep holding his son on the floor of the walk-in closet that was the baby\u2019s bedroom and would cook or cut vegetables one-handed while holding the baby.<\/p>\n Dr. Fisher suggested ways to \u201cbreak out of those thought loops\u201d that drove his anxiety, Mr. Gantwerker said. Learning that other men had similar issues, that he wasn\u2019t \u201cbroken\u201d or \u201cfrom the island of misfit toys\u201d also helped, he said.<\/p>\n When the couple\u2019s daughter was born in 2022, he was better at short-circuiting his symptoms.<\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019ve never gotten the intrusive thoughts to not come anymore,\u201d Mr. Gantwerker said. But when they arise, \u201cI think \u2018That feels terrible. OK, now I\u2019m going to go to another thing.\u2019\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Jeffrey Gantwerker always wanted to be a father and was elated when his first child was born. 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