{"id":391807,"date":"2026-11-03T06:52:20","date_gmt":"2026-11-03T06:52:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/us-ny\/391807\/"},"modified":"2026-11-03T06:52:20","modified_gmt":"2026-11-03T06:52:20","slug":"how-the-nyc-marathon-helped-me-discover-my-inner-strength-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/us-ny\/391807\/","title":{"rendered":"How the NYC Marathon Helped Me Discover My Inner Strength"},"content":{"rendered":"<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"0\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">Dear New York City,<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"1\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">Probably the most excruciating breath I\u2019ve taken in my life was in Lenox Hill Hospital on East 77th Street. It was my first breath on Earth, and my lungs must have wondered what had hit them. Forty-three years later, it seemed fitting that I\u2019d come back to you for another challenge to my lungs and body: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/beginner\/a61476139\/first-marathon-tips\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/beginner\/a61476139\/first-marathon-tips\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"my first marathon\" data-node-id=\"1.1\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">my first marathon<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"2\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">I have lots of memories of you, starting from those early years on Manhattan\u2019s Upper East Side. Then there were holiday visits and sleepovers with my grandmother in Stuyvesant Town, special days in Dad\u2019s office in Washington Heights, Mom\u2019s gallery openings in the Village. There were the fits and starts of my early professional career when I lived in Brooklyn and then Alphabet City, using most of my paycheck for rent, the rest for food. And of course, after I moved away in my late 20s, when I\u2019d see you a couple of times a month for work.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"5\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">If I\u2019m being honest, you\u2019ve always been a bit of a <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/health-injuries\/a20858030\/how-to-avoid-headaches-after-your-run\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/health-injuries\/a20858030\/how-to-avoid-headaches-after-your-run\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"headache\" data-node-id=\"5.1\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">headache<\/a> and a challenge. Back when I was just starting out, I couldn\u2019t tolerate your high prices and abrasive attitude, and your tendency to \u201cnever sleep.\u201d Which is why I ditched you for a less exhausting life in the country. Even today, I stress out just thinking about seeing you.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"6\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">But on an unseasonably warm November Sunday, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/nyc-marathon\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/nyc-marathon\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"NYC Marathon\" data-node-id=\"6.1\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">NYC Marathon<\/a> day, you challenged me more than ever before\u2014and revealed a level of <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/training\/a63792927\/lets-stop-glorifying-grit\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/training\/a63792927\/lets-stop-glorifying-grit\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"grit\" data-node-id=\"6.3\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">grit<\/a> I didn\u2019t know was in me.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"7\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">On the Verrazzano Bridge, I was overcome with emotion at having made it to the starting line. Surrounded by scores of runners from all over the world, with the open waterway below and the iconic skyline in the distance, I felt like a part of something huge and meaningful. It literally brought tears to my eyes.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"8\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">Running through Brooklyn, I was in a zone. I was able to stay on <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/training\/a20797129\/pace-training\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/training\/a20797129\/pace-training\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"pace\" data-node-id=\"8.1\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">pace<\/a> and hit the halfway mark in decent shape, so I forced a smile at the throngs of cheering spectators. I\u2019ve never been one to smile during races, and even your generous Brooklynites couldn\u2019t get me to light up a genuine grin.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"9\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">Then came the 59th Street Bridge. Long Island City, with its dull stretches of low-slung warehouses, is perhaps one of your most charmless neighborhoods. Nothing against the spectators who did their best in the streets leading up to the bridge, but that endless, gradual incline in the eerie quiet with the wind blowing up off the East River is where I started to unravel.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"10\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">The screaming wall of people on First Avenue did nothing to energize me. This is where I began to feel like perhaps a marathon is just too long a run to be considered a wise choice.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"11\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">And, sorry. Even if the Bronx had welcomed me with confetti and a marching band, it wouldn\u2019t have mattered. Once I got to the Willis Avenue Bridge, I regretted not bringing money or a MetroCard so I could duck out and just go home. With every step, my <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/health-injuries\/a43217195\/common-questions-runners-ask-about-feet\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/health-injuries\/a43217195\/common-questions-runners-ask-about-feet\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"feet\" data-node-id=\"11.1\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">feet<\/a>, my <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/health-injuries\/a60745708\/tight-quads\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/health-injuries\/a60745708\/tight-quads\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"quads\" data-node-id=\"11.3\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">quads<\/a>, my <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/health-injuries\/a68919114\/is-running-bad-for-knees\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/health-injuries\/a68919114\/is-running-bad-for-knees\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"knees\" data-node-id=\"11.5\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">knees<\/a> threatened imminent shutdown. Worse was the shivering that seemed to consume my whole body, like when you lie feverish in bed, begging for the Tylenol to kick in.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"12\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">Harlem was a fleeting boost, lifting me up ever so briefly at Mile 22 with its gospel choir, its Jamaican ska, its salsa beat. New York, here is where you started to shine and where I started to believe in myself. Your Harlem spectators literally reached out their hands and told me, \u201cYou can do this\u201d and \u201cYou look strong.\u201d They warmed me with their smiles when my body was wracked with chills. They let me pet their Bernese Mountain Dog, a wagging gift of comfort when all I wanted was to curl up on the sidewalk. They watched me cry tears that were a strange mixture of homesickness, pride, and self-pity. And they saw me smile a genuine smile for the first time all day.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"13\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">The high was short-lived, but that\u2019s okay. <a href=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/runners-stories\/a61489027\/run-a-marathon\/\" target=\"_self\" data-vars-ga-outbound-link=\"https:\/\/www.runnersworld.com\/runners-stories\/a61489027\/run-a-marathon\/\" data-vars-ga-ux-element=\"Hyperlink\" data-vars-ga-call-to-action=\"Marathons\" data-node-id=\"13.1\" class=\"body-link css-rgqwc2 emevuu60\" rel=\"nofollow noopener\">Marathons<\/a> are not meant to be easy. I had no illusions that I\u2019d skip along Fifth Avenue with my arms in the air. But I was able to hold on to that smile, the one I picked up in Harlem, that was as real as I\u2019ve ever smiled in a race. And friends told me later that I looked strong and was even passing other runners on that stretch just south of 110th Street.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"15\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">Central Park made my head spin. It was so close to the finish, yet it felt like endless circles. I was ready to be done with you, New York. But you had other plans. After I crossed the finish line (at 4:44, roughly 15 minutes slower than my hoped-for time), you sent me into the arms of a mom-like volunteer named Kate on whose shoulder I blubbered and drooled and snotted until she led me into a medical tent where I collapsed in a shivering heap, and was caught by a dreadlocked medic named Ishmael with gentle eyes who covered me in woolen blankets and placed me next to a heater and fed me hot soup and salt and Gatorade until I could stand up again and hobble back to the hotel and my family and my peaceful life.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"16\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">And though you raised the stakes in a big way, New York, that day, you made me grateful for the chance to prove to myself that I can do hard things. Even if we don\u2019t see eye to eye, you helped make me who I am. I never believed I could run this distance, that I\u2019d be up to the challenge. But looking back on our history, I\u2019m pretty sure you knew I had it in me all along.<\/p>\n<p data-journey-content=\"true\" data-node-id=\"18\" class=\"css-2x47mx emevuu60\">This article originally appeared in the Winter 2025 issue of Runner\u2019s World.<\/p>\n<p><img src=\"https:\/\/www.newsbeep.com\/us-ny\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/11\/c6e5279e-d621-44db-ba24-6a3436cd4e75_1763492060.file.png\" alt=\"Headshot of Leah Flickinger\" title=\"Headshot of Leah Flickinger\" width=\"100%\" height=\"100%\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"css-o0wq4v ev8dhu53\"\/><\/p>\n<p>Leah has been editing longform narrative stories for more than 20 years and currently directs features for Bicycling, Runner\u2019s World, and Popular Mechanics. She conceived of and edited \u201c12 Minutes and a Life\u201d by Mitchell S. Jackson for Runner\u2019s World that won both the 2021 Pulitzer Prize and the National Magazine Award for Feature Writing. 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